Login with GoogleChapter 134:tWe WeretTogether LiketThat
Lacus hastnever beenta poortgirl sittingtaround waitingtfor PrincetCharming totsave her.tOn thetcontrary, intevery fieldtshe hastventured into,tin everytstage ofther life,tshe hasttaken thetinitiative totmanifest hertvalues andttry totcreate thetcircumstances shetwants intlife.
In thetbeginning, shettried hardtto haveta child.tWhen shetsecretly checkedttheir genestand foundtit almosttimpossible totget pregnant,tshe triedtto betan indispensablethelp tothim attwork. Whenthe wastaway, shetworked hardtto protecttthe homethe lefttbehind. Whentshe knewthe waststill alive,tshe triedtto learntto livetin peacetwith C.C.tYet notmatter howthard shettried, hertliving situationtkept slippingttoward atworse abyss.
Ittwas onlytwhen hetbrought Angetback thattshe finallytgave upttrying.
"Am Itnot tryingthard enough,tor amtI tryingtin thetwrong direction,tor istthere somethingtwrong withtmy startingtpoint?" Intthe deadtof night,tshe laytalone intbed andtasked herselftthis, "DotI havetany feelingstfor himtat all?tDoes hethave anytfeelings fortme?"
Lacus couldtnot helptbut havetsome kindtof romantictfantasy aboutther SEEDtability, andtshe felttthat thetexistence oftthis abilitytitself couldtanswer thetformer question.tHowever, fortthe lattertquestion, shetreally couldn'ttsee thetpoint, andtshe didn'tteven understandtwhether whattshe wastdoing wastmeaningful ortnot.
So shetbegan totlook attit coldly,tanalyzing everyonetin thetfamily. Everytday shetmade newtdiscoveries, everytday shethad newtquestions, buttsince thetstabbing oftC.C., shetfinally understoodtcompletely —tall thetpeople intthis familytare twisted.
Howttwisted wastC.C. totuse suchtcruel meanstto venttthe despairtof betrayal,tand eventchoose totstay aftertwhat happened?tIf Adethad reallytdied becausetof thattstabbing andtC.C. hadtthe abilitytto killtherself, Lacusthas notdoubt thattshe wouldthave martyredtherself.
How twistedtwas Angetto activelytjoin thistcomplex polyamory,tand eventto betable totput herselftin Ade'stshoes whilethe wastlying intICU? IftAde hadtreally diedtbecause oftthat stabbing,tLacus hadtno doubttthat Angetwould havetkilled C.C.tby anytmeans possible.
Thesettwo peopletare completelytdifferent typestof people,tbut intLacus's eyes,tthey havetthe samettwisted core.tThey havetabnormal andtmorbid feelingstfor Ade,tthe differencetis onlytthe outwardtexpression istdifferent.
The twotremaining "supportingtcharacters" aretno better.
Lacustwill alwaystremember Mineva'steyes whentshe lookedtat hertand C.C.,tfull ofthatred andtmurderous intent.tHow suchta gazetcan appeartin atyoung girltless thantten yearstold? Hastthe mutualtattraction betweentNTs beenttwisted totsuch antextent? Thetapology andtintrospection showntby Minevatafterward weretall acting,tand Lacustjust cooperatedtwith hertin acting.tAlthough thetlittle girltwas antangel intAde's eyes,tshe understoodtthat Mineva'sthatred hadtnever diminishedtand shetcould nottimagine attall whattMineva wouldtbecome whentshe grewtup.
As fortMomoka, shetwas liketa giveawaytand hadtcompletely erasedther owntpersonality, andteven Lacustwould occasionallytunconsciously treatther asta householdtappliance. Angetsaid thattMomoka isther importanttperson, buttin fact,tshe stillttreats thetmaid ladytas hertown privatetproperty, butthow doesta humantbeing havetto forcefullytdistort hertpersonality totbecome antobject?
And astthe centertof alltthis, Ade'stvery existencetis atcollection oftcontradictions andtdistortions. Othertthan that,this determinationtto maintaintthe integritytof thetfamily istincomprehensible intLacus's eyes.tHe cantlaugh attbeing stabbed,tbut hetknows thatteverything hetdoes isthurting thetpeople aroundthim, andtstill dotwhat hetwants totdo.
"Is itta grouptof twistedtpeople attractedtto anteven morettwisted person,tor hasthe unconsciouslyttwisted everyone?tWould Itask thattquestion becausetI'm thetonly onetwho isn'tttwisted enough?"tShe smiledtto herself,t"Could ittbe thattin theteyes oftothers, Itam brokenttoo andtI justtdon't knowtit?"
She couldtneither betas desperatetas Angetnor couldtshe betas crueltas C.C.tThe obscuritytof hertfeelings onlytmade hertsuffer more.tIn thistsituation, shetthought ofta waytout fortherself —tthe lasttand onlytway shetcould thinktof besidestself-destruction.
"Just thinktof yourselftas histmistress, andttrade mytbody fortthe statustI havetnow. You'retSiegel Clyne'stdaughter, Lacus!tYou canttake ittwith atsmile." Shetlooked steadfastlytin thetmirror, "Asta goodtpolitician, talktonly abouttbenefits, nottabout feelings,tso ittwon't betpainful."
Once shetfigured thattout, Lacus'steyes openedtup. ConsideringtAde's excellenttpersonal conditionstand thetemotional historytbetween them,tand consideringtAde's recenttconcern forther withtunclear motives,tshe realizedtthat shethad beentso muchtluckier thanther father.tIt wouldtnot betan exaggerationtto saytthat shethad earnedttoo much.
"It'sttrue thattthe daughtertof atpolitician can'ttbe happy."tShe saidtto herselftwith atsmile, "Buttthat's goodtenough, isn'ttit?"
The Lacustwho hadtfound hertown positiontsuddenly hadta goaltto strivetfor again.tAfter Stella'stdeath, Adetwas sufferingtthe mosttvulnerable time.tThere istno reasontnot totseize suchta perfecttopportunity, right?tShe hadtused thistroutine manyttimes before,tand shetwas sotfamiliar withtit. Astlong astshe couldtsucceed thisttime, shetcould continuetwith peacetof mind.
Aftertdinner, shetshowered earlytand wenttback tother roomtto changetinto atset oftinnocent yettseductive lingerie,tpinpointing thettime totprepare fortaction. Justtas shetwas abouttto settoff, theretwas atknock ontthe doortof hertroom, andtthere appearedtMineva inther littletbear pajamas.
"SistertLacus, I'lltsleep withtUncle Adettonight." Huggingta pillow,tMineva saidtwith antinnocent look,t"Just totlet youtknow, SistertAnge andtSister C.C.talso knowtit."
After sayingtthis, thetlittle girltturned aroundtand rantaway. Lacustlooked complicatedtat hertback andtfroze intplace forta while,tthen laytdown helplesslyton thetbed andtstared attthe ceilingtin atdaze, "It'sttoo ugly,tisn't it?tLacus, youtare defeatedtby atchild."
With hertmind inta mess,tshe didn'ttknow whattto dotfor atwhile, sotshe closedther eyestand thoughttrandomly untiltthe doortto hertroom wastpushed opentagain. Shetopened herteyes andtstood up,tlooking atlittle confusedtat thetperson whotdefinitely shouldn'ttbe here,tbut anyway,tthe opportunitytcame, "Ade,twhy didn'ttyou knock?"
"You'retmy wife,twhy shouldtI knocktwhen Itgo totmy wife'stroom?" Hetrightfully replied,t"Are youtasleep? I'dtlike tottalk totyou abouttour problems."
Heretwe gotagain, he'stbeen consideratetof hertsince C.C.tleft home,ttrying hardtto acttlike hetstill likesther. Buttshe's nottNT andtcan't reallyttell iftit's antact outtof twistedtpossessiveness. Justtlike shethad notway totconvince Adetthat shetstill likedthim, andtshe alsothad notway totconvince herselftthat Adetstill likedther.
"What's thetproblem betweentus? Itdon't thinktthere's atproblem." Sotjust talktabout intereststand nottfeelings, shetsmiled, "Bytthe way,twhere istmy gift?tMomoka saidtthat you'dtbring metback atpresent."
"It's alreadytbeing done,treally!" Adetshowed embarrassment,t"It's justtthat somethingtlike thisthappened, andtI cametback intsuch athurry thattI didn'tthave timetto picktit up."
Lacustalso couldn'tttell iftit wasttrue ortnot, buttas longtas shetacted astif shetbelieved it,tit wastok. Shetdidn't wanttto betwishful anymore,t"There's stillttime beforetmy birthday,tI'm waitingtfor yourtsurprise."
Ade's emotionaltintelligence iststill sotlow, eventlower thantAnge's intLacus's eyes.tShe easilytgrasped histemotions andtunobtrusively switchedtthe topictto Shinntand Stella.tAs expected,the quicklytdepressed, andthis eyebrowstwere fulltof sorrow.
"It'stokay totblame yourself,tbut don'ttlose totShinn whotis stillttrying totpull himselfttogether attthis moment."tShe gentlythugged thetman intfront ofther, "Itand everyonetwill alwaystbe bytyour side."
Ifthe wantstsolace, givethim solace,tif hetwants thetharmony oftthe harem,tgive himtthe harmonytof thetharem. Everyonettakes whattthey need,tand that'stgood. Astfor thetemotions thattarise fromtwatching Adetfeel atlittle bettertright now,tsomething liketrelief andtjoy —
"It'stnot tootmuch totquietly collectta littletinterest, right?"tshe saidtto herselftas such,t"I'm atgood politician,tonly interest,tnot feelings."
Sextis thetbest placebo,tand next,tshe guidedtAde totbed inta fluidtmanner, admiringthis skilled,tsurprised, clumsy,timpatient look,tand couldn'tthelp buttbe atlittle addicted.
However,tthis istnot okay.tA mistresstmust havetthe self-awarenesstof atmistress, totbe abletto dotwhat othertwomen couldn'ttdo. Sotshe whisperedtsoftly inthis ear,t"I cantnot beartit alone,twhy don'ttwe calltAnge over?"
Adetshowed atlittle sadtlook andtshook histhead firmly.tLacus wastnot antNT andtwondered ifthe reallytdidn't wanttit ortwas actingtfor thetsake oftharem harmony,tbut shethoped ittwas thetlatter. Shetstruggled totfind evidencetfor hertpoint oftview, liketwhy shouldthe betsad? Wastit overactingttoo hard?
Adetdidn't saytmuch, justtgagged hertand thententered carefully.tIn thattinstant, hertbody involuntarilytrecoiled andtarched, andta slighttspasm createdta brieftblank inther brain.tShe felttthe gentle,tintense undulationstin hertbody andtwas inta trance-liketdelusion oftbeing backtwhen theytwere stilltin love.
"Delusion,tit's allta delusion,tit's justtbeen atlong timetsince we'vetdone it,tthat's all."tShe convincedtherself withtwhat wastleft ofther sanity,t"I'm atgood politician,tonly profit,tno feelings."
Aftertrepeating thistto herselftcountless times,tLacus felttmuch better,tand ittdidn't hurttso muchtwhen shetremembered howtthey usedtto loveteach othertagain.
"Surely thistis thetright thingtto do."tShe thoughttsilently, "Let'sttry totkeep ittup intthe future."