Chapter 26: Because Someone Is Already Protecting Me
Boom!
The violent explosion made Su Youwei subconsciously cover her head.
Finished.
Her "Perfect Self" didn't leave any residue in the sea of her divine sense. Her imagination didn't work at all.
What made Su Youwei feel worse was that even though she had averted her eyes, they still reflected the terrible posture of her internal demon.
It was monstrous.
It was composed of naked flesh and blood, and its body was full of red bone spurs.
The "Wings" stretching out from its back were actually a pile of broken blades.
Half were as white as snow.
Half were as black as ink.
Half was inner emptiness.
Half was filled with crazy killing intent.
It was difficult to describe its crazy appearance in precise language.
Maybe this was the so-called internal demon.
They were such freewheeling things.
Su Youwei began to recall the past.
When did she first meet this horrible monster?
This went back to her previous life.
From the moment she fled the Su family, after losing her closest relatives, a hole appeared in her heart.
She would suddenly wake up from her sleep because of suffocation.
When she woke up, tears appeared in her eyes.
The first thing to do was fill the emptiness with boundless hatred.
She still clearly remembered the scene when she stabbed her first enemy in the heart with a machete.
Blood gushed from the wound like a spring.
In a flash, the enemy's white clothes were dyed red with blood and he fell to the ground trembling.
One stabbing after another.
The flesh was cracked.
More and more blood poured out.
Wasn't that scene very similar to the huge monster in front of her?
But at that time, she looked at the sharp machete with blood beads rolling down, and felt surprisingly reassured and calm. She felt that she finally had the power to protect herself.
Then…
With the improvement of her strength, the enemies she encountered became stronger and stronger.
She had no time to think about the future.
All she had known was that the world she wanted to protect had been mercilessly destroyed by others. What she could do was make them feel the same pain she felt.
Keep killing.
Use killing to drive out hatred, and use blood to make up for the fear that filled her heart.
But killing brought more hatred.
In order to banish this hatred, she had to kill more people who stood in front of her.
This was probably the so-called drinking poison to quench thirst.
If she could successfully kill all the people who were enemies with her in her previous life and then die, this internal demon would not become so ferocious.
Su Youwei looked up.
The internal demon didn't continue to attack after she scattered her imaginary self.
Su Youwei and her internal demon looked at each other across the space.
In the sea of her divine sense.
They seemed to be thousands of miles apart.
But in a trance, Su Youwei felt that the internal demon was always in her body. The monster she saw now was the real self in the mirror.
A monster born for killing!
"That's right."
A sound rose.
It was Su Youwei's own voice which seemed to come from the depths of her heart.
"Whether you admit it or not, I am you, you are me, and we are the same person."
"No." Su Youwei shook her head, "You are not even human!"
No human grows so terrible!
"Here, what you see is your own heart."
"Heart?"
"An ugly heart."
"Impossible!"
"Nothing is impossible."
While talking, the huge monster's body shrank rapidly, and those dazzling spikes completely disappeared after shrinking.
The girl who finally appeared in front of Su Youwei was a petite girl with white hair and red pupils.
She wore a gorgeous skirt as vivid as blood.
This color deeply stung Su Youwei's eyes.
"I know you prefer to see me like this, but it's ultimately just a false disguise. You see, no matter how the clothes change, they are still bloody red."
Su Youwei clenched her fist.
"In fact, you know, even if you go back to the past when nothing has happened, you can't deny what had happened, otherwise, I wouldn't be here."
"What if I choose to forget?"
"You can't forget!"
"……”
"Maybe you haven't realized but you have a pair of eyes that can see the past and the future. Even if you temporarily seal this memory, it won't take long for you to recall them."
Su Youwei pondered and said, "So if I want to forget all this, can I only choose death?"
"No, you can choose to accept all this. What you have to do is not to deny yourself, but to make yourself a complete person!"
A trace of confusion flashed within Su Youwei's eyes.
She suddenly felt that what the internal demon said was very reasonable.
The reason why an internal demon was born in her heart was that there was a hole inside.
If she chose to accept everything about this internal demon, wouldn't that hole be blocked?
But…
Su Youwei shook her head.
If she became a monster, she would not be qualified to continue to stay next to Martial Sister Bai Lian.
The other Su Youwei continued, "It's not very difficult to accept, is it? You should never forget what protected you during that difficult time. If you give up even this layer of protection, what would you be left with?"
Loneliness.
This word naturally appeared in Su Youwei's mind.
Under the sunny sky, she walked alone, and no one would care about her.
It should have been like this, as "She" thought.
But…
"What I have left will be a life I have never experienced!"
Su Youwei interrupted her other self's words with a decisive voice.
It was impolite to interrupt others with a loud voice, aggressive pace, and frequent gestures, but it was very effective.
"I see."
"You know…"
Su Youwei said, "No wonder the 'Perfect self' I imagined didn't leave a residue when it was smashed, because you didn't smash her at all! You just used my wrong cognition to steal control of her. This is not your body, it was not, is not, and will not be. Your ugliness is yours, and I still have the right to choose my own future."
"What are you trying to say…?"
Su Youwei continued, "Your existence may have protected me in the past, but I don't need you anymore."
The internal demon was silent.
After a long time, it said, "Why?"
"Because someone is already protecting me!"
When saying this sentence, the sadness that gathered on Su Youwei's face gradually dissipated, replaced by a smile as bright as spring flowers, with heart-pounding magic.
Even the internal demon was no exception.
Its heart roared like a drum.
Its ferocious face once again poked out from the edge of the sea of her divine sense.
The other self, standing opposite Su Youwei, collapsed like a sand sculpture.
This was ruthless destruction.
"Who?"
Su Youwei's internal demon asked.
Su Youwei smiled shyly, "You know who."
"Then she will become your new internal demon."
"I don't think so. I prefer to fill my hole with warm things rather than a cold monster like you!"
What a great speech.
Even the internal demon was silent again at this time.
"Let me see."
Su Youwei saw a sudden burst of black light, like a surging flood that was about to devour her sea of divine sense.
But she was not afraid.
She closed her eyes slowly.
Elder Martial Sister Bai Lian's voice and smile slowly surfaced in her heart.
From head to feet, from hair to rounded toes.
When Su Youwei opened her eyes again, her "Martial Sister Bai Lian" appeared in front of her.
Facing the terrible internal demon, "Martial Sister Bai Lian" rushed forth resolutely.
Boom——
Blinding lights scattered everywhere.
In the next second, the sea of her divine sense returned to its calm state.
"Elder Martial Sister Bai Lian" disappeared, but the black light also stopped surging.
Her internal demon said in a hoarse and noisy voice, "Is this the person who protects you? I don't see anything special about her."
Su Youwei shook her head, "You will understand."
The reason why the "Martial Sister Bai Lian" she imagined could not defeat the ferocious internal demon was not that the "Martial Sister Bai Lian" didn't protect her.
This was simply because of her insufficient understanding of Martial Sister Bai Lian, so the "Martial Sister Bai Lian" she imagined was not perfect.
Take her foot for example. The only thing she could restore was Martial Sister Bai Lian's right foot.
My internal demon, wash your neck and wait. When I get to know Martial Sister Bai Lian more, I'll kill you!
As for whether Martial Sister Bai Lian would become the new internal demon…
She had become Elder Martial Sister Bai's Martial Sister; did she really care about this?
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